If the stories of my life written on my face....

Reflection of love

2012-02-11T13:57:00.000+08:00

We are the images on how can a camera captures a good reflection. Beautiful face and beautiful figure cannot promise a beautiful outcome. Inner self is always a concept with values. A single simple person yet we make a great company! Reflect on our yesterday’s life, today, tomorrow forever it will be. Love is not just us, it is all around us. Loving one person does not mean him alone, it is love for his families, his relatives, his friends and his buddies. I admit this is the hardest part for me to accept and merge with people surround you. To love you is not about changing me to fit in as your attachment to be me or you, but to be us. It is us in love, in family, in companionship as a lover, as husband, as wife and as a best friend. We cannot be one or two, but we have to be everything because you and I is everything that reflects us. It is the reflection of love life.

#IDoNotUnderstand

2012-02-01T22:39:00.000+08:00

I guess its same thing happened over and over again.
I dont ask for anything else, i just want your time for me..

Jan

2012-01-17T00:12:00.000+08:00

sebabkan smlm pegi lunch tghari panas giler cuaca smpai hari ni aku ngn tedd sama2 demam.

sama2 g klinik then mc. sigh..

2011 Trip

2012-01-03T23:32:00.000+08:00

2012

2012-01-02T17:29:00.000+08:00

Wishing is easier then to get it done. Wishing for everything but for me, Im looking forward for our engagement this year.

heap heap here we go ~ work hard and harder !

hari yg productive

2011-11-29T00:18:00.000+08:00

28 nov 2011

730am - bgn jemur baju kt ampaian
800am - mandi siap2 nk g office
830am - singgah mcd drive thru beli chicken mcmuffin. salah order. patutnya nk sausage mcmuffin
910am - smpai office turn on email etc
10am - leave office meet up with tedd kt car park. park my car then hope in tedd's car
1015am - heading to puchong settle psl our new house renovation. mkn bfast lam kete share ngn tedd tp coffee tertinggal lam kete satu lg. so mcchicken + mineral water. layan~
1130am - smpai puchong angkt brg2 naik rumah. pas kunci kt abg renovate.
130pm- heading to the curve . shopping. jalan2 then tgk movie immortals. seriusly sakit jantung tgk movie tu. ganas sgt. tp xpe tedd blanja caramel pop corn. mkn sorg xmo share hahaha !
345pm-smbung shopping. tedd ckp nk cari short panT nnt nk pakai minggu depan nnt nk g holiday. yeay !!
430pm- mkn ayam penyet smpai skrg kenyang lg !! nk mkn ais krim kt chocolate lounge tp lupe singgah. sgt kekenyangan. mata da ngntuk.
6pm- smpai umah tdo smpai maghrib ! dan skrg da x ngntuk.. huuuuuu

Salary

2011-11-10T21:47:00.000+08:00

To target my salary can go up to 10k by my age reach 30.

Full of spirit. Here I go !!

Life is getting harder

2011-11-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

Dear,

what can i do? im tired.. im lonely..
save me..
only if u can hear me..

Life is Hard

2011-11-03T22:10:00.002+08:00

Life is hard..
But i cant give up..
At a time i cried..
Life is hard..

Trust

2011-10-30T23:06:00.000+08:00

I remembered you said trust is the most important elements in a relationship
But how can I trust you when you hide things from me?
When I asked, you will try to make hundred thousand story which I cant understand wheres the beginning and wheres the ending.
I just dont know where else my tears will go
Im tired hiding my tears..

Ya Allah tabahkanlah hatiku...
Ya Allah tenangkanlah hatiku..
Ya Allah temanilah aku mengharungi ini semua..

29 Oct 2011

2011-10-29T08:47:00.000+08:00

Perhaps the most important thing we bring to another person is the silence in us, not the sort of silence that is filled with unspoken criticism or hard withdrawal. The sort of silence that is a place of refuge, of rest, of acceptance of someone as they are. We are all hungry for this other silence. It is hard to find. In its presence we can remember something beyond the moment, a strength on which to build a life. Silence is a place of great power and healing.

It takes one to get once

2011-10-09T20:29:00.000+08:00

Dulu kita selalu sama2, borak2 sama, lepak sama2. Cerita tu cerita ni tp ntah kenapa skrg kita dah x mcm dulu. Mungkin sbb masa dh x sama kot. Tp dulu apa2 pn kita ok je. Tp skrg, jmpe pn mcm kaku xtau nk ckp ape.

Pelik kan. Dulu kalau jmpe mesti mcm2 cerita , tp skrg jmpe senyap je. hmmm.. nk tanya kang nnt ckp aku lak yg over sensitive. tp dulu ko xla sombong mcm skrg. dulu pape pn ingt aku, skrg ingt aku bila nk mintak tlg, or bila kwn2 ko xde.

xpe la, mungkin aku ngn ko bukan kwn lg... x add pn aku kt bb ko. tanye pn x.. sigh..

Fasting day 11

2011-08-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

Rasa mcm dah turun 2KG. Mana x nye buka x selera langsung mkanan beli kt gerai2 tu.
x menyelerakan ngn lalat nye,ngn longkang nye. beli kang alih2 sakit perut .. so tiap2 hari pun buka mkn kuih je la sorg2..
tahun lepas2 pn sorg2, tahun ni pun sorg2...
bgn pg lak nk sahur bukak tv ingtkan ade bunyi xla rasa sunyi sgt..
minum mineral water, masuk tdo..
esk buka puasa sorg2 lg
dan esk dan seterusnya
bosan !

Tuesdays with Morrie

2011-08-06T12:51:00.000+08:00

Its a great movie that i watched last Thursday. Great old man with great people loves.

He said.. " "Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live." I wanted to live like him. With no regrets surrounding with everyone who loves me with support in every way.
If I wanted to learn how to die I must ready to die then only I will learn how to live.

He said again..."Forgive yourself before you die. Then forgive others."
It might be hard for me to forgive myself with all the best opportunity I ever wasted, but as what I learn from him before live with no regrets. Everything happened for reasons.

Lastly i remembered he said... "You closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too-even when you are in the dark. Even when you're falling."

Love me love say that you love me~

2011-08-05T23:11:00.002+08:00

its easy to have me, just say that you love me~

The king and The maid

2011-07-24T15:06:00.001+08:00

You are the king of glory. I'm the maid of honor
Whenever you say yes, I say yes
Whenever you say no, I have to say no
Whatever you likes, I have to follow
Whatever you dislikes, I have no other option
No matter what rules you make, I have to obey
No matter what mood you are in, I have to be careful
Every times you make jokes, I have to laugh
Every times you give an opinion, I have to agree
Your dressing a tailor made, my dressing a factory made
You are the majesty, I'm the slave

21-July-2011

2011-07-21T16:46:00.000+08:00

Today my alarm ring at 8.20AM. Wake up and rushing to bathroom thingking i have no time to wash my hair.
While rushing to bathroom looked over my big wall clock it 7.20 !! so blur in the morning.
Lying back on the coach, open up a radio listen to the morning song while having my favourite hot chocolate.
Make me realise, its good to wake up early in the morning which i dont have to rushing everytime ! :P

My journey

2011-06-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

Finally, i put a full stop at the end of the rode.
I dont say its easy, yet its hurt..
I'm confuse and lost everytimes..

Cooking theraphy. Lets cook !

2011-05-01T21:10:00.000+08:00

Ikan Masak Stim Limau

There's few recipes how to cook "Ikan Masak Stim Limau"

Recipes 1 :

2 batang serai (diketuk)
1/2 inci halia (diketuk)
1/2 inci lengkuas (diketuk)
3 ulas bwg putih (diketuk)
5-7 biji cili api (diketuk)
1 sb sos tiram
1/2 sb sos ikan
4 sb jus limau campur (limau nipis + limau kasturi)
4 sb susu cair
1 biji tomato (dibelah 4)
1 labu bwg besar (dihiris)
sedikit daun sup & daun bawang (dihiris)
1 biji cili merah (dihiris)
sedikit garam
1-1½ liter air
sedikit cendawan dan bunga kobis
1 sb tepung jagung (dibancuh dgn sedikit air)

Cara-cara

Didihkan air di dalam kuali. Masukkan serai, bawang putih, halia, cili api dan lengkuas. Kemudian masukkan ikan. Gunakan api sederhana.
Kemudian masukkan bawang besar, sos ikan, sos tiram, cili merah, cendawan, bunga kobis, daun sup dan daun bawang. Kacau dgn perlahan.
Akhir sekali, masukkan susu cair, jus limau, garam, tepung jagung dan tomato. Biarkan merendidih seketika. Tutup api, dan hidangkan.

Recipes 2:

Ikan Siakap
Bawang putih cincang
Cili padi cincang
Halia dirincik halus
Bawang besar dirincik halus
Serai dirincik halus
Daun limau purut
Sos ikan (menggantikan garam)
Air limau nipis
Sedikit gula
1 sudu teh minyak masak
Secawan air (untuk lebih berkuah)

Cara membuatnya:

Gaul ikan siakap dengan sos ikan. Kemudian tabur semua bahan yang dihiris tadi.
Taburkan sedikit gula
Siram air limau nipis dan kemudian sesudu minyak masak (utk melembutkan ikan)
Kukus selama 20 minit
Masukkan daun limau purut dan kukus lagi dalam 10 minit.
Sedia untuk dihidangkan.

Life is Hard

2011-05-01T18:44:00.002+08:00

Trust

2011-04-24T01:58:00.000+08:00

Trust NO ONE except yourself !!!

Yagoya

2011-04-10T12:16:00.000+08:00

Old Stories Value

2011-04-10T11:54:00.000+08:00

2011-03-28T22:32:00.001+08:00

Ya Allah.. Tunjukkanlah aku jalan..
Aku buntu..
Aku redha dgn segala ketentuan-Mu..

2011-03-28T00:37:00.001+08:00

Ya Allah, jika dia jodohku..restuilah kami..
Dan jika dia bukan jodohku..tunjukkan aku jalannya..
Amin..

Holiday with IHG

2011-03-27T01:36:00.000+08:00

Where you can go holiday with IHG in Malaysia

Holiday Inn Resort, Penang

72 Batu Ferringhi, 11100 Penang

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Holiday Inn Resort Penang is situated on the charming island of Penang, which is steeped in rich cultural heritage and is the perfect place for a well-deserved holiday. The spectacular beachfront resort offers breathtaking views every afternoon, as the sun starts to sink slowly towards the horizon, and is the ideal location for families, couples, corporate or incentive groups.

Holiday Inn Melaka

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Facilities

Holiday Inn Melaka is the city's newest hotel with an unrivalled view of the picturesque Straits of Melaka. Just less than 3 hours drive from Singapore and 2 hours from Kuala Lumpur, we are offering guests the perfect place to relax in comfort and explore the historic Melaka.

Holiday Inn Glenmarie, an international deluxe hotel, is perfect for leisure visits as well as management retreats.

The hotel is an integral part of the Glenmarie Golf and Country Club, a complex situated on a 350-acre expanse of land, adjacent to the hotel. Holiday Inn Glenmarie Kuala Lumpur is set amidst lush tropical greenery, overlooking two of the finest 18-hole golf courses in Malaysia.

All the hotel guest rooms at Holiday Inn Glenmarie feature a view of either the meticulously sculpted gardens or the golf course. Holiday Inn Glenmarie Kuala Lumpur unveiled its Pacific Floor, which is poised to offer a dedicated world of refinement to business and corporate high-flyers.

Only 30 minutes away from Kuala Lumpur International Airport, the Holiday Inn Glenmarie Kuala Lumpur is 25 minutes from Kuala Lumpur's city attractions, including Kuala Lumpur Tower and Kuala Lumpur city centre.

Crowne Plaza Kuala Lumpur

Crowne Plaza Hotel
KUALA LUMPUR
JALAN SULTAN ISMAIL
KUALA LUMPUR, 50250 MALAYSIA
Email: accommodations@medretreat.com

Welcome to the award winning Crowne Plaza Mutiara Kuala Lumpur.

This landmark 36 story business hotel is superbly situated amidst five acres of landscaped gardens in the heart of Kuala Lumpur's business, entertainment and shopping district. Only a five minute walk away are the brand new Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre, the world famous Petronas Twin Towers, Suria KLCC shopping centre and Kuala Lumpur's hottest nightspots on the streets of Jalan Ramlee & Bukit Bintang. A monorail station at the entrance of the hotel ensures quick access to other parts of KL.

All of the hotel's rooms and suites have undergone a complete refurbishment in 2003 and include features such as broadband internet access, window seats, ergonomic work areas and open plan bathrooms with separate shower areas featuring rain showers and over-sized bathtubs.

InterContinental Hotel Kuala Lumpur - Kuala Lumpur

Star rating

Rooms

468

Location

Kuala Lumpur - City Centre (KLCC)

Overview

Luxury hotel in the city centre with great, spacious deluxe rooms and a large swimming pool ...

Hotel Description

The InterContinental Hotel Kuala Lumpur is adjacent to Ampang Park LRT Station, in the heart of a commercial, shopping and entertainment district. The Petronas Twin Towers are less than 10 minutes walk from the hotel. The InterContinental Hotel Kuala Lumpur has a large fifth floor swimming pool with a sundeck, set amidst manicured gardens. Rooms are impressive and spacious with deluxe amenities. Formerly known as the Nikko Hotel Kuala Lumpur.

Happy Holiday !!~

to be with

2011-03-12T00:12:00.001+08:00

To be with someone that want to be with u
Is better than be with someone
That u want to be with.

Something that I always knew but I can't admit it
Now I'm too late and too far from the last u-turn

And its just me. Always me. And be me.

11 March 2011

2011-03-11T22:35:00.001+08:00

I'm tired
I'm hungry
I'm sleepy
I'm mad
I'm angry
I'm sad
I'm dissapointed
I'm down
I'm alone
I'm me !!

sunday

2011-02-20T23:05:00.001+08:00

Great days waiting ahead.
Should I wait or should not ?

fever

2011-02-18T00:36:00.001+08:00

Got full package of sore throat, demam, batuk n selsema.

Sedih lak time2 mcm ni, xde sape amik berat.. :(

PH

2011-02-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

Bosan lak duk umah satu hari. nk kua malas, tp lapa. nk kua mkn pn malas, nk msk lg malas. so berlapar je lah satu hari.

:(

2011-02-10T06:51:00.001+08:00

I'm so lonely.

09 Feb 2011

2011-02-09T21:32:00.001+08:00

I had a weird dream abt u last night. And this morning when my phone ringing, I have a strong feeling that its u.
But when I look at it, its not.

And today, tho I'm so busy but for 1 second its remind me abt u.
I don't know and its mix around.

And tonite, I'm suppose to having dinner together with a friend of mine.
But its seem like I'm just an option when someone more close or more important than me that she need to be with 1st.

Its make me thinking, why ? Am I just an option to her ?
Why I can't be as close she and her ?

I guess, I have to walk home and having diNner alone like I used to.
Its not that bad to ended alone tho everytime I always feel lonely.

No friend to talk to, no one to share my daily life.. Looks like I'm all alone.

I'm just an OPTION.

5 Feb 2011

2011-02-05T22:48:00.001+08:00

Now, otw back to kl after long holiday and I know I'm not ready to go back to kl !!

Spending time with my familia is so tempting !

Off to sleep, I mean, try to get some sleep. Tmrw is sunday, sunday means another day to monday which I'm not ready for.

ZZzZzzzZ

29 JAN 2011

2011-01-29T00:53:00.001+08:00

Not a good start for this year.. And not a good end for this month.

I might can't find some who love me as much as u do
At the time when I know u will always be here when I need u

Can't say no more, too tired for this..

Friday, 31 Dec 2010

2010-12-31T08:32:00.000+08:00

The time has come to end. So, do not be pursued further .. let what has happened over the years and made a memorable lesson for us. Do not complain for what we have earned over the years. while there is time, as long as there is a power, can run as long as we are still able to earn. This is not to say to others but to ourselves as well. I know that you will read it all, maybe not now, maybe someday.

So please do not wait for me anymore. I know its hurt, and I know I'm being super cold to you, but we were not meant to be together. There were to many things that going to hurt each of us if we were still together. I cannot bear the fact that every words that we threw to each other were really hurt.. right?

I have a few things need to fulfill for this coming year.. pray for me will ya?

Sunday, 28 Nov 2010

2010-11-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

Your memory still with me...

Saturday, 27 Nov 2010

2010-11-27T06:15:00.000+08:00

The fact that we are not perfect, sometimes make us feel down.. i mean, really down..

Saturday, 20 Nov 2010

2010-11-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

Wherever you are, you are still in my mind..
No matter how much i hate you, you still in my memory..
Tho we never see each other anymore, you still in my heart..
Now that you hate me, you still someone that i miss the most..

Avoiding each other forcing us to be a real cold ice queen..
Not to care about each other really make myself to get busy each day..
Now that i notice, my saturday is my dairy day for you...
Its not that i regretted, but im glad we choose our own path..
To be a better person for granted..

Saturday, 13 Nov 2010

2010-11-13T16:19:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i do felt guilty. I give hope, i plant the seed of trust, but at the end.. i cant make it.. i stop halfway..
i'm sorry.. i want to make it happen to you, as like i promised.. but i just cant. too many things happened that hurt both me and you. and i cant stand to be like before anymore. plus i know better, im not the same person as i am before. im not someone who u think of like before. u also admit that i have changed. yes, i am. and im not sorry for what ive change. i changed for good, for myself and for my future. and me can fight for my own life. i know u might say u will do everything u can to pleased me in whatever way i want, but trust me.. u will get tired. and i dont blamed you for that.

tho i dont know u, but i read your words.. your words that tells everything how dissapointed and how sad u are. im sorry i cant be there to wipe your tears.. and sorry i cant be there to calm u down or even to support and bring back the breath that u need to take to climb up back. i know u feel bad, u feel sad, u feel whatever feeling that bring u down.. and how i wish to say that im sorry.. im not that cruel but i just cant. i know that u feel sorry and if possible u wanted to bring back all the times and recreate it better.. but it wont happen. thats how life is.

far from here, im hoping that each day u will feel better, buck up, climb up back, and stand with your own 2 feets. i know its hard, but i believe that deep inside yourself..that u believe in yourself..

The past

2010-11-06T15:43:00.000+08:00

The past...
Seperti ape yg slalu aku fikirkan bila teringat kisah silam slalu aku katakan pada diri sendiri, yg lepas tu bia lah lepas. Tp kadang kala bila bersendirian teringat jugak kisah lama2. Org tetap akan salahkan aku, ckp aku penting kan diri sendiri. Tp perlu ke aku nk pk kan itu je? Bila aku susah, bila aku sedih sapa yg ade di sisi aku menemani aku? Bila ini yg terjadi, dia mula menyalahkan aku. Kata nya aku cuma mempermainkan perasaan nya. Tp pernah ke dia terfikir bagaimana layanan dia pada aku? Layan aku mcm aku ni pengemis.. mcm aku meminta2 di sayangi.. mcm aku meminta2 di kasihi..

aku cuba untuk bangun dari kejatuhan semalam.. biakan kisah diri mengalun ikut rentak kehidupan seharian, sendiri... ape yg tercicir semalam, aku kutip balik dan satukan utk aku jadikan tapak utk melangkah di hari esok. biar lah.. aku x kesah kalau aku dipersalahkan..

Sunflower

2010-10-30T14:41:00.000+08:00

I'm grateful for what I have today. I'm thankful for the love that love me.
Yesterday story teach me to appreciate today's sunny day as the day might end up raining and make me fall sick and hurt.

I'm sorry...

2010-10-30T14:32:00.000+08:00

Dear,

I'm sorry that I let you down.
I'm sorry that I forget my promise to you.
I'm sorry that I cant keep my words.
I'm sorry that I make you cry.
I'm sorry that I make you hurt.
I'm sorry that I cant be with you whenever you are alone.
I'm sorry that I cant be by your side.
I'm sorry that I cant share my smiling face with you.
I'm sorry that I cant share my happiness with you.
I'm sorry that I cant say that I'm sorry.
I never meant to hurt you...

30/10/10 1432hrs - I'm sorry i read your blog..

Last night...

2010-05-09T13:17:00.000+08:00

"Last Night"
(feat. Diddy)

[Diddy:]
Last night.
I couldn't even get an answer.
I tried to call but my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here with this blank expression.
And the way I feel, I wanna curl up like a child.

I know you can hear me.
I know you can feel me.
I can't live without you.
God, please make me betta.
I wish I wasn't the way I am.

[Keyshia Cole:]
If I told you once, I told you twice.
You can see it in my eyes.
I'm all cried out with nothing to say.
You're everything I wanted to be.
If you could only see your hearts belongs to me.
I love you so much.
I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free.
Forever yours I'll be.
Baby, won't you come and take this pain away.

[Diddy:]
Last night.
I couldn't even get an answer. (You said you couldn't get an answer baby)
I tried to call but my pride wouldn't let me dial. (But that should never stop you)
And I'm sitting here with this blank expression. (Sitting there, I can't reach your mind baby)
And the way I feel, I wanna curl up like a child. (The way I feel, a baby)

[Keyshia Cole:]
I need you and you need me.
This is so plain to see.
And I would never let you go.
And I will always love you so.
I will...

If you could only see your hearts belongs to me.
I love you so much.
I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free.
Forever yours I'll be.
Baby, won't you come and take this pain away.

[Diddy:]
Last night. (Oh, last night)
I couldn't even get an answer. (Baby why you wanna do me, yeah)
I tried to call but my pride wouldn't let me dial. (Why won't you just call me baby oh?)
And I'm sitting here with this blank expression. (Don't sit there baby, no, no, no)
And the way I feel, I wanna curl up like a child. ( Alright, I'm so alone; I'm so lonely, baby)

[Bridge:]
Tell me what there is to say to make you come back.
Don't break me like that.
And if it matters I'd rather spend my life with you.
I'm never alone.
Whenever you're home just phone me.

[Diddy:]
Last night. (Yeah)
I couldn't even get an answer. (Couldn't get an answer baby, oh)
I tried to call but my pride wouldn't let me dial. (Call me baby, why couldn't you just dial
me baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby)
And I'm sitting here with this blank expression. (Don't sit there, no)
And the way I feel, I wanna curl up like a child. (Alright, I'm so alone, I'm so lonely baby)

[Keyshia Cole:]
I need you and you need me. (Need you, I need you)
This is so plain to see.
And I would never let you go.
And I will always love you so.
I will...

If you could only see your hearts belongs to me. (Only see)
I love you so much. (So, so)
I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free.
Forever yours I'll be.
Baby, won't you come and take my pain away. (Hey)

[Diddy:]
Last night.
I couldn't even get an answer. (I couldn't catch you baby, no)
I tried to call but my pride wouldn't let me dial. (Call me baby, why couldn't you just dial
me baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby)
And I'm sitting here with this blank expression. (Don't sit there, no)
And the way I feel, I wanna curl up like a child. (Alright, I'm so alone; I'm so lonely, baby)

[Keyshia Cole:]
Why don't you pick up the phone and dial up my number?
And call me my baby.
I'm waiting on you.
Why don't you pick up the phone and dial up my number?
Just call me up baby.
I'm waiting on you.

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Dont treat me as I'm your queen,
I don't deserved it that way,
Treat me as I'm your love one,
I dont want to be the number one,
But I want to be your only one..

Dont think of me as I'm your king,
Think of me as you are the one that gonna lead me,
Dont shout to me as I'm your soldier,
Shout to me with the words of your love,
Command me with your love wish,
As your wish is my command..

Your love make me realize there's a true love in this world,
Your love make me feel as I'm still in need,
Your love make me feel save,
Your love make me fall in love, again..

But I guess, its end last night..

I love you, Mohd Samsul Akhma.

Rindu ma, Rindu abah...

2010-04-24T20:26:00.000+08:00

Last night, I read my sis blog.. she posted something about me that make me feel that she's so cruel whenever she do her own judgment about me and make me cry all night long.. So I wrote a story of my life start to let her know me since both of us not really closed like everyone else. Plus she was studying at boarding school.. So she was not there when something happened in our family..I'm hardly talked to her or shared my day with her..

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When I was 5 years old.

Bgn pagi2 bersiap nak ke sekolah tadika. Seperti biasa, abah akan hantar ke sekolah setiap hari di sebelah pagi. Tp pagi tu sgt dingin, aku dah siap nak ke sekolah, aku nampak ma menangis di tepi katil. Tengok je ma nangis aku pun turut sama nangis walaupun masa tu aku tak paham pape. Ma peluk erat je aku masa tu tak bagi aku gi sekolah nk aku temankan ma kat rumah hari tu. Masa tu abah dah marah2 ma sbb tak bagi aku g skolah. Abah suruh aku gerak, sbb abah nak antar aku gi sekolah, tp aku tak nak. Aku ckp, nk temankan ma kat rumah hari ni. Lagi sekali abah marah2 ma, dan memang aku tak paham kenapa abah marah ma. Dan sampai hari ni pun aku masih boleh ingat kejadian 20 tahun lepas walaupun sampai ke hari ni aku masih tak tahu apa punca ma nangis dan abah marah2 hari tu.

Pernah jugak satu hari, aku balik dari sekolah tadika, ma takda kat rumah. Tak ingat ma pegi mana, tp masa tu aku ngan zarir je yg ada kat rumah. Hari tu mood aku rajin, so aku nak tolong ma kemas rumah. Aku pun ambil penyapu dan sapu ruang depan rumah. Zarir ada sama masa tu, zarir ikut je aku menyapu. Aku sapu kat depan tv, zarir pun ikut sama ke depan tv. Then sampai ke satu part aku pegi dekat bawah almari kaca yg tempat ma simpan pinggan mangkuk. Aku tak ingat macam mana masa aku tengah sapu bawah almari tu, cermin almari boleh jatuh atas aku. Terus kaca cermin tu kene dahi aku yg sampai sekarang lekat lagi parut.

When I was 12 years old.

Masa ni darjah nam, aku amik UPSR. Tp keputusan UPSR aku tak sebagus kak ghoh. Yelah sebelum aku, keputusan UPSR kak ghoh bagus so kak ghoh dpt offer ke sekolah yg bagus. Tp aku x, aku cuma boleh sambung belajar dekat sMKG. Mayb kat sini bermulanya.

Aku sendiri pun kecewa bila keputusan aku x sebagus mana yg x melayakkan aku utk ke sekolah yg lg bagus. Tp aku xda pilihan, aku teruskan juga ke sekolah seperti biasa. Tp semenjak itu, apa saja yang aku lakukan ada saja yg x kena. Itu x kene, ini x kene.. setiap hari kalau x kene marah ngan ma dan abah mesti x sah. Tp masa tu aku mayb x berapa paham nape ma ngan abah marah2 aku. Yelah, ma ngan abah nk mengajar anaknya...

When I was 13 years old.

Aku sambung belajar mcm org lain. Lalui hari2 persekolahan. Masa form 1 kat sekolah ni sekolah waktu petang. Dan ada suatu pagi tu, pag2 lagi ma dah kejut aku bgn. Ajak aku temankan ma g pasar, ma nak beli durian. Ma nak mkn durian katanya. Aku pun bersiap2 utk keluar ngan ma nak g pasar beli durian. Lepas siap2 aku g jumpe zarir, aku ckp kat zarir aku nk pinjam jam tangan dia sbb aku takda jam tgn, aku risau nnt xtau pukul berapa nnt lambat nak g sekolah. tp zarir x bg pinjam. aku ckp, aku nk pinjam kejap je, balik nnt aku bg lah smula.. tp zarir x bg jugak.. masa tu ma terdgr aku ckp ngan zarir. ma ajak aku gerak sbb dah lewat.. jadi aku ikutkan juga. sepatutnya utk ke pasar kene ikut jln satu lg, tp ma ckp kita g tgk kat sana dulu sbb sana ada jugak org jual durian. aku ikut je ckp ma. sampai sana.. ma ajak aku jln2 kat kedai jam. ma tunjuk satu jam kat aku, jam kecik mcm feminin skit, tp masa tu aku x suka jam mcm tu.. yelah mase tu suke ganas2 je, manalah nk pakai jam yg nampak cam feminin kan.. then aku tunjuk kat ma aku suka jam lg satu yg besar.. ma ckp, org perempuan x sesuai pakai jam besar2, jam kecik2 la sesuai ngan tgn yg kecik.. tp disebabkan aku x berkenan jadi ma ikutkan je pilihan aku. masa tu aku gembira.. aku x mintak pun ngan ma utk beli jam.. ma sendiri yg belikan. aku dulu jenis x reti nak mintak2, pakai apa yang ada je. sama jugak dgn jam tu, masa tu even zarir yg lg kecik dr aku pun ada jam tangan, tp aku xda.. aku x mintak ngan ma sbb aku tau jam tgn mahal.. dan ma plak slalu mengadu kat aku xde duit. sbb mase tu kak ghoh belaja jauh skit, so setiap minggu ma kene hantar duit utk kak ghoh.. dulu aku baik, x byk buat perangai.. apa yg ma ngan abah ckp ikut je.. skrg anak sedara aku yg kecik2 tu suma ade jam.. even yg paling kecik pun ada jam tangan.... ala kalau xda pun sbb diorang sendiri yg rosakkan jam tu, tp nnt dpt balik ganti jam baru.. bertuahnya diorang..

When I was 15 years old.

Tahun 2000, aku amik PMR. Dan skali lagi keputusan PMR aku x sebaik mana yg mana x melayakkan aku untuk bertukar ke sekolah yg lagi baik. Tp aku kuatkan semangat dan terus kan sambung belajar di sekolah yg sama.

When I was 16 to 17 years old.

Mayb sbb ma ngan abah slalu sgt tgk muka aku, diorang bosan kot. Jadi aku ni mcm tempat diorang melepaskan marah. Aku sendiri x paham apa lah salah aku. Sampai last2 aku lg suka menyendiri. Aku mula menghabiskan masa aku kat dlm bilik buat hal aku sendiri. Kadang2 aku turun just utk pegi toilet atau mkn. Tu pun mkn kadang2 lewat dr org lain. Sbb penah sekali dua, aku mkn semeja ramai2, tp aku xtau apa sebabnya aku kene marah. x paham langsung. aku tgh suap nasi nak mkn, pun ade jugak salahnya. lepas dr hari tu mmg aku jarang sgt mkn sama.

Masa ni jugak, aku ade kes ngan ma dan abah. kes curi duit. ma ngan abah ckp aku yg slalu curi duit tp tiap kali tu jugak la aku ckp aku x curi. bukan aku. mayb ma ngan abah pk aku yg curi sbb aku penah amik duit sendiri dlm almari ma. tp mlm sbelum tu aku dah mintak ngan ma aku nak duit sikit. nk bwat beli kasut. sbb aku takde kasut sukan. aku cuma ada kasut sekolah sepasang je. so bila nk ke sekolah ptg2, aku nak jugak pakai kasut sukan mcm org lain sbb nnt kalau pakai kasut sekolah, cepat kotor. kasut kaler putih. aku dah ckp kat ma, esok aku nk g kb nk beli kasut sukan. then bila bgn pg, aku tgk ma takde kat umah. pukul 10, aku tunggu ma balik.. pukul 11.. aku tunggu lg.. pukul 12.. ma x balik2 jugak. jadi aku buat keputusan utk amik sendiri duit dlm almari ma. kalau x silap aku, aku amik RM30 je, tu pun skali untuk tambang. Mkn lak, makan siap2 apa yg ada kat rumah. Aku ingt lagi, kasut tu aku beli kat Mydin yg paling murah. Tp hari tu bila balik kg aku tgk micah siap beli kasut sukan kat bata lg.. bertuahnya micah. sampai je rumah dr beli kasut, ma dah ade kat depan tunggu aku. Aku pegi kat ma, then ma tanya aku kalau aku yg amik duit tu. Aku ckp yer, aku yg amik sbb smlm aku dh mintak so aku pk ma lupa nak letak atas meja. Aku siap mintak maaf sbb amik sendiri duit dr almari ma. Tp ma tolak2 aku bila aku cuba pegang tgn ma sambil mintak maaf. Di sebabkan ma x maafkan aku, kasut tu pun aku jarang pakai. aku letak je atas rak kasut.

sampai lah seingt aku, aku x mintak lg pape yg aku rasa x penting mana dr ma ngan abah yg melibatkan duit. start dr tu, aku mula simpan duit. kat skolah aku join budak2 ni main kutu. sehari kene baya 50 sen. Tp aku amik double. so sehari kene baya satu ringgit. so aku pun start la menyimpan. so aku slalu ada simpanan dlm 20 ringgit ke 30 ringgit. bg aku masa tu 20-30 ringgit tu dh cukup byk..

seingt aku jugak masa ni, aku slalu pegi sekolah naik basikal skali ngan suhaila. pastu basikal suhaila rosak, jd suhaila naik bas sekolah untuk ke sekolah sementara nk repair. jd aku pun naik la bas sama nnt aku xde teman. dlm 2-3 hari pastu suhaila ckp kat aku basikal dia rosak terus, xleh repair lg. so suhaila naik bus je g sekolah tiap2 hari. aku suh dia beli basikal baru, tp x mampu katanya. aku mula2 tu aku naik jugak basikal g sekolah tp lama2 x berteman, bosan dan kekok jugak. so aku pun bwat keputusan utk naik bus sama... mayb bg ma ngan abah kwn tu xde la penting mana, tp masa tu aku bersekolah lg. bg budak sekolah, kwn2 tu agak penting, tp takda la sampai nak mendahulukan kwn dr segala2nya.. dan ade satu pagi tu, bila aku tgh pakai kasut depan pintu.. ma marah2 aku sbb aku g sekolah ngan bus xnk naik basikal. ma ckp aku belagak, xnk dah naik basikal ke sekolah. tp dlm hati aku x sape tahu. takda langsung niat aku ke sekolah naik bus sbb nak belagak. di sebabkan ma x setuju aku naik bus ke sekolah, ma x bg aku duit skolah lebih utk tambang bus. masa tu duit aku ke sekolah rm2. sebelum ni naik basikal rm2 tu dah cukup. tp bila naik bus tambang saja dah singgit pegi balik. so ade singgit je utk mkn. so setiap hari time rehat aku cuma boleh mkn kuih ngan beli air je. kuih 2 bijik 40 sen dan air 20 sen. kadang2 air x beli bawak air kosong dr rumah. sbb nnt kalau ada kelas tambahan, tengahari lapa x cukup duit nak beli makanan pastu nak baya kutu lagi. mana nak cukup duit.. then mase tu aku terpaksa stop baya kutu sbb mmg x cukup duit.

lama jugak la aku bertahan ngan duit 2 ringgit ke sekolah sampai la ma bg aku duit lebih skit sbb masa tu aku dah busy dgn kelas tambahan ptg dan selalu balik lewat. so aku pun bole la sambung baya kutu balik. dan satu hari, aku siap2 nk g sekolah.. pakai kasut kat depan pintu ma ngan abah berdiri belakang aku.. abah tanya kalau aku yg amik duit dr poket baju abah sbb bila bgn pg abah check duit tu dah xda. aku ckp bukan aku. bus sekolah dah benti depan rumah tunggu aku. aku pun mintak la duit sekolah. tp ma ckp.. buat apa nak bg duit lg, kan smlm dah amik dr poket baju abah.. masa tu aku rm rm1.20 je baki duit smlm. dgn terpaksa aku aku gerak jugak naik bus sbb pakcik bus tu dah hon2. aku pandang ma ngan abah.. tp aku ingt lagi pandangan ma ngan abah kat aku masa tu penuh dgn perasaan benci dan marah.. dan hari tu aku kat sekolah x mkn pape... lapa.. nk mkn, xde duit.. singgit bwat tambang. baki 20 sen je. kes pasal curi duit tu x hbs sampai situ.. dlm seminggu ada je aku kene soal.. tiap kali tu jugak la aku ckp bukan aku, bukan aku. dlm rumah tu cuma aku, zarir, micah, ma dan abah. micah aku tau die x bwat. zarir... masa tu mmg aku benci sgt ngan zarir sbb die yg mencuri tp aku yg kene, dan ma ngan abah lak x caya bukan aku sebenarnya yg curi...

bayangkan, mcm mana aku lalui hidup aku tiap2 hari dgn ma ngan abah yg selama ni anggap aku yg mencuri dlm rumah tu. setiap kali ma ngan abah pandang aku, aku terasa mcm ma ngan abah pandang dgn perasaan benci. sbb kes ni, aku betambah2 menyendiri. aku sedih tiap kali nak tgk ma ngan abah tgk aku mcm tu. org yg sepatutnya paling dekat utk menyokong aku, ma ngan abah,. tp langsung x percaya ngan aku. aku mula menjauhkan diri dr ma ngan abah..

time ni byk bende terjadi kat aku dlm rumah tu. dengan kes abe tampar aku depan ma sampai telinga aku tersumbat x dengar pape. tp ma x ckp apa kat abe. x mempertahankan aku langsung. aku sedih sampai x kua bilik, x mandi x mkn nangis sampai tertido. ma x amik peduli langsung. ma x kesah. hari kedua aku dgr moto kak. kak dtg umah ma. aku dgr kak ckp2 ngan ma then tetiba aku dengar kak naik atas then ketuk pintu bilik aku. pintu bilik aku kunci. kak suh abe ngoh g ikut lua n panjat tingkap bilik aku then bukak pintu. lepas je abe ngoh bukak pintu, kak masuk dan cari aku..aku xde atas katil.. aku bawah meja.. dua hari aku kat bawah meja. tdo kat situ nangis kat situ. masa tu aku nak satu tempat yg aku rasa selamat.. kak tarik aku kua, tp aku ckp xnk.. aku xnk kua.. aku patah semangat aku terlalu sunyi. tp sebab dah 2 hari x mkn, aku x bertenaga, kak berjaya tarik aku kua dr bawah meja.. kak turun bawah amik nasi penuh satu pinggan nak suap aku mkn tp aku xleh nak makan. x berselera langsung... kak tanya aku mcm mana boleh jadi mcm ni.. aku citer kat kak.. aku ckp aku sedih ngan ma dan abah yg patut nya jadi tempat aku mengadu kasih .. aku ckp kat kak yg aku x dengar.. telinga aku sumbat sebelah.. yg mana ma xtau pun apa jadi kat aku.. aku sedih ma x pedulikan aku pun.. kak bawak aku g klinik .. n ajak aku duk ngan kak.. tp aku xnk.. aku tau masa tu hidup kak susah, so aku xnk menambahkan beban kak. tp kalau diikutkan, nk je aku duduk ngan kak... slama ni pun aku kak je tempat aku mengadu.. tp kak dah ada family sendiri kadang2 busy ngan family sendiri. tp kak tau, sbb kak pun ade gak terasa ngan ma dan abah..

byk sgt hal yg terjadi kat aku masa ni.. yg slalu menyedihkan sampaikan tdo mlm aku mimpi2 sampai nangis.. kadang2 sampai skrg pun aku mimpi bende yg sama dan nangis2 lg..

2008

Lepas SPM , aku dpt offer ke MMU.. suka ! 1st time dpt melayakkan diri sambung belajar ke tempat ok. but its not going so well.. so i drop the studies..

kak ghoh: kalau u tau kisah hidup i slama ni mayb u wont say something like i went to the college so that i'm able to run away from the family. and if u really know the story mayb u wont blame me 100% percent for why i'm always to keep silent from the family. si tanggang moden... u r one of the person that like to do the judgement without knowing me ! like everyone, i would like to show to ma n abah that i am someone. but the day that u bring ma here was not at the right time. that time, i didnt have the parmanent job. i'm hardly living, i dont want her to see me like this. like i'm useless. of course if i see her, i would like to treat her with something good like u always did to them, but i dont even have a money to buy a food even for myself.. so how could i show this side of me to her? i dont want to make her worry about me.. i know that what i've done to her was too much either. but i want to be someone with something before i meet her. and here u r.. with ur own judgement.. i'm hardly express my feeling since i have no one before to talk to that make me to keep it all in me.. but pls dont give me that look. i hve my own reason. dont give me a look, like i'm the ugly one, and yes i'm at fault.. but neither yday, today or tmrw i'll never do something to hurt them like that if i dont have a reason.. since u always treat them with your money, doesnt mean u love them more than anyone else...

dr kecik sampai skrg, u r thier number 1 and i always be the last one.from food to cloth, from cloth to love, u always have better than me.. i didnt blame u because u can do better than me...

Two better than One

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Currently.. have been listening to this song over and over again.. Maybe its true I cant live without u.. Maybe two is better than one..

Cant stop thinking, how he's doing.. What he's doing.. Have been waiting for his call.. I missed him.. a lot ! But I don't understand why he always throw his temper to me.. and talked to me like I'm nothing special to him.. When he's acting that way.. I'm so hurt, I always choose to remain silent better than talked back at him and make it worst. What else can I do?

I know that both of us do make a mistakes before, so I thought this is our chance to change everything. I still wondering where is our last station and when that will be.

Wherever he is.. or how far he might be, just want him to know that I always love him. I miss you syg..

-Bi-

The Sign Language

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Few years back, I still remembered I went to a fast food stall with my friend, and she's deaf. So we are using a sign language as a medium to communicate with each other. At the beginning yes its not easy, but I'm getting used to it and getting excited to learn more and more about the sign language. Oh back to the story, on that day we walk together to the stall while chit chat with moving our hands like usual. While walking to the counter I see group of guys looking at us and I looked back at them. Walked passed by them and I hear one of the guys said "ala.. bisu rupanya.." for me, the way they said that were quite rude. So I pretend that I didnt hear them. After ordered our food, I picked a place whereby I can see them. Me and my friend continued chit chat while eating. I guess its one of the advantages using sign language to communicate while eating because it wont disturbed while we chewing the foods !

After finished our meals, we decided to continue with our shopping things. So I walked pass by them, I stop, smiling and said "Hi". They were so shocked ! I smile and walk out. I hope they learn a lesson on that day. :P

Here are the example of sign language of feeling/emotion. Or you can go straight to this link for more signs. http://www.lifeprint.com/asl101/pages-signs/h/happy.htm

Happy Learning~

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What is Virtual Reality

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Last night I opened my drawer and I founded a CD of research on my studies before. Just wanted to shared the research with everyone though its not that good. The page is quite long since its a book of research. Happy reading..

The copyright of this thesis belongs to the author under the terms of the Copyright Act 1987 as qualified by Regulation 4(1) of the Multimedia University Intellectual Property Regulations. Due acknowledgement shall always be made of the use of any material contained in, or derived from, this thesis.

© Siti Noraida binti Abd Wahab, 2006

All rights reserved

DECLARATION

I hereby declare that the work have been done by myself and no portion of the work contained in this thesis has been submitted in support of any application for any other degree or qualification of this or any other university or institute of learning.

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Siti Noraida binti Abd Wahab

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

To begin with, I would like to thank to my lecturer, Pn.Natalya Rudina Shamsuar for her advice and guidance for me during the process for this research.

I also greatly appreciate a support from my friend, Selina Ooi Shin Ping for her to assist me in writing this research. Last but not least, I openly acknowledge the support from Mohamad Zaffrullah bin Ab Basik who always companies me for observation the idea and searching the information.

ABSTRACT

Virtual Reality (VR) application is a new technology in this area. VR application not just limited in entertainment, but also in medical applications, engineering and architecture, military simulations, scientific visualization and financial visualization. But VR application in entertainment is the most popular between others. This is because nowadays, entertainment is such an important matter for people to gain enjoyment and relaxing. Why entertainments become so important these days? People life style become very busy and cause stress and pressure. Entertainments one of the choices for people to relax from busy days. There are lots of entertainments available for people to choose, but an entertainment that have VR application becoming very popular now.

Entertainment application of VR is an ideal entertainment because it’s rich of sensorial interaction and 3D immersion that gives people a new way to explore reality. VR turns the imagination to reality. The lucrative video game and theme park markets are the areas of fastest growth of such as heavyweights Sega, Disney Paramount Pictures, LucasArts, General Electric, Hughes and Microsoft. VR entertainment applications now range from PC-based game, to network multiplayer games, to location-based VR rides.

What so special about VR is, today immersive VR accomplishes by interfaces for sights and sound. VR is not limited to one person at a time, but also a group can share the experience, even when they are physically located in different places. For example;VR online games. As a result, the understanding of VR will be gain while process this research.

TABLE OF CONTENTS

COPYRIGHT PAGE ii

DECLARATION iii

ACKNOWLEDGEMENT iv

ABSTRACT v

TABLE OF CONTENTS vi

LIST OF TABLES x

LIST OF FIGURES xi

PREFACE xii

CHAPTER 1: INTRODUCTION 1

1.1 Background Research 1

1.2 Research Questions 1

1.3 Justification Research 1

1.4 Methodology 2

1.5 Scope 2

1.6 Thesis Outline 2

CHAPTER 2: LITERATURE REVIEW 3

2.1 The Historical Development of Virtual Reality 3

2.2 Virtual Reality Application in Entertainment 4

2.3 The Elements of Virtual Reality Application in Entertainment 4

2.3.1 Output Hardware 4

2.3.2 Input Hardware 5

CHAPTER 3: METHODOLOGY 7

3.1 Research Method 7

3.2 Case study I – Output Hardware 7

3.2.1 Introduction 7

3.2.2 Visual Display Characteristic

3.2.3 Visual Display Device Types 8

3.3 Case study II- Input Hardware 8

3.3.1 Introduction 8

3.3.2 Input Device Characteristics 8

3.3.2.1 Desktop Input Devices 9

3.3.2.2 Tracking Devices 9

3.3.2.3 3D Mice 9

3.3.2.4 Special-Purpose Input Device 9

3.3.2.5 Direct Human Input 9

CHAPTER 4: RESEARCH ANALYSIS 10

4.1 Introduction 10

4.2 The Analysis of Output Hardware 10

4.2.1 Introduction 10

4.2.2 Visual Display Characteristic 10

4.2.3 Visual Display Device Types 12

4.3 The Analysis of Input Hardware 17

4.3.1 Introduction 17

4.3.2 Input Device Characteristics 17

CHAPTER 5: DISCUSSION AND CONCLUSION 20

5.1 Discussion 20

5.2 Conclusion 23

References 25

CHAPTER 1: INTRODUCTION

1.1 Background Research

The objective for this research is to be able to compare VR application in entertainment as to understand what VR application in entertainment is in term of user preference. For example, what the user looking for when entering games with VR application is a feeling that the user or entering a world that can touch emotionally, that can immerse themselves. What makes people feel good with an entertainment that have VR application is as the aim for this research, Its important for people to be able to understand what VR application is so that this product can grow faster and to apply VR on a new products.

1.2 Research Questions

The question like the different between entertainment product that have applied VR and haven’t will be ask online survey. And what and how this application is so VR. This question is good to know if people really understand about it because sometimes people said they have heard it before but not really pays attention.

1.3 Justification Research

The key of objective for this research are to improve the understanding of VR application especially in entertainment. The worst problems that will occur if didn’t really understand what VR applications are a failure to create a new entertainment product of VR application and a failure to improve it. However, if understanding of what VR application is can be getting the possibilities of the creation successful is high.

1.4 Methodology

This research will be done by gather and find the information needed from journals, books study, online surfing by internet and online survey question.

1.5 Scope

Scope for this research is not limited to one generation only but also from kids to teenagers and from teenagers to an adults. This is because entertainments not only for one generation, all generation need entertainment as a life requirements.

1.6 Thesis Outline

Chapter one will provide an overview introduction of research background, justification and objectives/scope of this research.

Chapter two will discuss about the analysis the issues and the perceptions of a comparative study on VR application in entertainment.

Chapter three describes the collection of information about comparison of VR application in entertainment and the technology of VR application.

Chapter four will explain and analyze the feedbacks and results from comparison of VR application in entertainment from online survey and self reservation from books and journals.

Chapter five will interpret the discussion of the issues in the research questions and show a brief answer to each of the question. The conclusion of this research will provide some recommendations in order to solve the issues in the entertainment of VR application.

CHAPTER 2: LITERATURE REVIEW

2.1. The Historical Development of Virtual Reality

Virtual Reality (VR) is such a new technology in our area. It emerged in the public domain after a considerable period of research and development in industrial, military and academic laboratories. The emergence of VR was closely related to the maturity of other technologies such as real-time computer systems, computer graphic and display. Then, at some critical moment, when each technology could provide its own individual input, a crude working system appeared. History remind people that there is a time and place for everything to happen, and irrespective of how useful, exciting and revolutionary a product appears to be, it will succeed unless the right condition exist.

Successful invention is above all about timing, where a product meets a specific need, such as spectacles. VR system were not developed to meet a specific need, they were developed because they were possible. The development and fine-tuning of these systems continues, but in the meantime applications are emerging that confirm that people are dealing with the powerful and creative way of interacting with computer-based systems.

Looking back over the historical development of modern technology, it is interesting o see how one idea spawns another. VR obviously depended upon the existence of the computer, not to mention the associated field of computer graphics. So it is interesting to trace back in time, to see how each major technological breakthrough brought people one step towards today’s VR systems.

2.2. Virtual Reality Application in Entertainment

VR entertainment application now range from PC based game, to networked multiplayer games, to location based VR rides. Entertainment is an important thing to people because living needed and entertainments do not have age range. Everyone needs an entertainment in daily life. Listening to music and watching videos have existed in known digital versions for tens of years as a much appreciated way of entertaining. As of today, modern technology gives people entertainment with VR application.

“There is no doubt in anyone’s mind that entertainment is destined to become massive market for VR. It is noteworthy that parallel with the development of single user, immersive VR systems-motion theatres-are providing an alternative scenario for entertaining groups of people. Traditionally, these simulator rides are passive, and each group of people receives the same experience. However, interactive rides exist, where individuals can interact with real-time computer graphics. VR technology will continue to stimulate new game formats, where single and networked users will compete with one another, while sophisticated motion theatres will provide an alternative experience.” (Vince.J, 1995)

2.3. Virtual Reality Hardware

VR hardware is something that can make people understands the different between entertainment with VR application and entertainment with no VR application in it. VR hardware also something that will make the application so VR.

2.3.1. Output Hardware

A necessary component of any 3D user interface is hardware that presents information to the user. These hardware devices, called display devices (or output devices), present information to one or more user’s senses through the human perceptual system, majority of them are focused on stimulating the visual, auditory or haptic senses. “In some rare cases, they even display information to the user’s olfactory system, or sense of smell.”(David, 2001)

Of course, these output devices require a computer to generate the information through techniques such as rendering, modeling and sampling. The devices then translate this information into perceptible human form. Therefore, displays actually consist of physical devices and computer systems used in generating the content the physical devices present.

2.3.2. Input Hardware

An equally important part is choosing the appropriate set of input devices that allow the user to communicate with the application. For example, we might need to track the user’s head or let him interact with the application using his voice. As output devices, there are many different types of input devices to choose from when developing a 3D user interface, and some devices may be more appropriate for certain tasks than others.

Many different characteristic can be used to describe input devices. One of the most important is the degrees of freedom that an input device affords. A degree of freedom is simply a particular, independent way that a body moves in space. A device such as tracker generally captures three position values and three orientation values for a total of six degrees of freedom. For the most part, a device’s degree of freedom gives an indication of how complex the device is and the power it has in accommodating various interaction techniques.

“Input device can be categorized by their intended use. For example, some devices are designed to specifically determine position and orientation information (locators), while others are designed to produce a real number value (valuators) or to indicate a particular element of a set (choice).”(Bowman.D.A, 2005)

CHAPTER 3: METHODOLOGY

3.1. Research Method

This research is about understanding of VR application in entertainment. To be able to understand about VR application in entertainment, self observation and online survey been used which is, reviewing the book and journal and do an online survey question in website about VR application in entertainment. VR application is such a new technology in this area, so not many people know about what VR application is. Doing self observation is the best way to do this

3.2. Case study I – Output Hardware

3.2.1. Introduction

Visual displays present information to the user through the human visual system. As stated, display devices require the computer system to generate digital content that the display device transforms into perceptible form. For visual display devices, real-time computer graphics rendering techniques are used to produce the images that display device presents to the user.

3.2.2. Visual Display Characteristic

A number of important characteristics must be considered when describing visual display devices.

• Field of regard and field of view

• Spatial resolution

• Screen geometry

• Light transfer mechanism

• Refresh rate

• Ergonomics

Other characteristics include brightness, color contrast, and gamma correction.

3.2.3. Visual Display Device Types

• Monitors

• Surround-screen displays

• Workbenches

• Hemispherical displays

• Head-mounted displays

• Arm-mounted displays

• Virtual retinal displays

• Autostereoscopic displays

3.3. Case study II- Input Hardware

3.3.1. Introduction

As stated, an equally important part is choosing the appropriate set of input devices that allow the user to communicate with the application. For example, we might need to track the user’s head or let him interact with the application using his voice. As output devices, there are many different types of input devices to choose from when developing a 3D user interface, and some devices may be more appropriate for certain tasks than others

3.3.2. Input Device Characteristics

This research contains a variety of different input devices and how they affect interaction techniques. These devices are broken up into the following categories:

• Desktop input devices

• Tracking devices

• 3D mice

• Special-purpose input devices

• Direct human input

3.3.2.1 Desktop Input Devices

• Keyboard

• 2D mice and trackballs

• Pen-based tablets

• Joysticks

• 6-DOF devices for the desktop

3.3.2.2. Tracking Devices

• Motion trackers

• Eye trackers

• Data gloves

3.3.2.3. 3D Mice

3.3.2.4. Special-Purpose Input Device

3.3.2.5. Direct Human Input

CHAPTER 4: DATA ANALYSIS

4.1. Introduction

The purpose of this study was to compare a different of VR application in entertainment. The researcher believe that, the understanding of what VR is the most important part and a meantime the hardware of VR is the biggest way to show the different between them. This is because, the hardware that been used in VR application is the reason why that application is so VR.

4.2. The Analysis of Output Hardware

4.2.1 Introduction

Visual displays present information to the user through the human visual system. As stated, display devices require the computer system to generate digital content that the display device transforms into perceptible form. For visual display devices, real-time computer graphics rendering techniques are used to produce the images that display device presents to the user.

4.2.2. Visual Display Characteristic

A number of important characteristics must be considered when describing visual display devices.

• Field of regard and field of view

• Spatial resolution

• Screen geometry

• Light transfer mechanism

• Refresh rate

A visual display device’s field of regard (FOR) refers to the amount of the physical space surrounding the user in which visual images re displayed. FOR is measure in degrees of visual angle. For example, if we built a cylindrical display in which a user could stand, the display would have a 360-degree horizontal FOR. A related term, FOV refers to the maximum number of degrees of visual angle that can be seen instantaneously on a display. For example, with a large, flat projection screen, the horizontal FOV might be 80 or 120 degrees depending on the user’s position in relation to the screens because the FOV varies with the user’s distance from the screen.

The spatial resolution of a visual display is related to pixel size and is considered a measure of visual quality. This measure is often given in dots per inch (dpi). The more pixels displayed on the screen, the higher the resolution, but resolution is not equivalent to the number of pixels. Instead, resolution depends on both the number of pixels and the size of the screen. Two visual display devices with the same number of pixel but different screen sizes will not have the same resolution, because on the large screen, each individual pixel takes up a larger portion of the screen than on the small screen. Therefore, the smaller screen will actually have higher resolution than the larger screen when both have an identical number of pixels. “The further the user is from the display, the higher the perceive resolution because individual pixels are not distinguishable. This is similar to the effect of viewing paintings from the pointillist movement.”(Kieseyer, 2001)

Another visual display characteristic that plays a role in visual quality is screen shape. Visual displays come in a variety of different shapes, including rectangular-shaped, hemispherical, and hybrids. Nonrectangular screen shapes require nonstandard projection algorithms, which can affect visual quality. For example, hemispherical displays can suffer from visual artifacts such as distortion at the edges of the display surface, resulting in lower overall visual quality.

The most important visual display characteristic is how the light actually gets transferred onto the display surface. There are number of different ways to transfer the light, including front projection, rear projection, laser light directly onto the retina, and the use of special optics. The light transfer method often dictates what types of 3D user interface techniques are applicable. For example, when using a front-projected display device, 3D direct manipulation techniques do not work well because the user’s hand can get in the way of the projector, causing shadows to appear on the display surface.

Refresh rate refers to the speed with which a visual display device refreshes the displayed image from the frame buffer and is usually reported in hertz (Hz, refreshes per second). Note that refresh rate is not to be confused with frame rate, the speed with which images are generated by the graphics system and placed in the frame buffer. Although a graphics system could generate images at a rate higher than the refresh rate, the visual display can show them only at its refresh rate limit. The refresh rate of a visual display is an important characteristic because it can have a significant effect on visual quality. Low refresh rates can cause flickering images depending on the sensitivity of a particular user’s visual system.

Finally, visual display ergonomics is also an important display characteristic. People want the user to be comfortable as possible when interacting with 3D applications, and people want the visual display device to be as unobtrusive as possible. Comfort is especially important when a user has to wear the display on his head.

4.2.3. Visual Display Device Types

The different types of visual displays include the following:

• Monitors

• Surround-screen displays

• Workbenches

• Hemispherical displays

• Head-mounted displays

• Arm-mounted displays

• Virtual retinal displays

• Autostereoscopic displays

Other characteristics include brightness, color contrast, and gamma correction. Table 1 present summary of output devices.

Visual Display Types Pros and Cons Visual Depth Cues Supported

Monitors Relatively inexpensive

Very high spatial resolution

Can use virtually any input device

Small FOR/FOV

No peripheral vision

Not very immersive

Physical/virtual object occlusion problem • Monocular

• Stereopsis if using stereocapable monitor

• Limited motion parallax when tracked because of limited mobility

• Convergence if using stereo

• No accommodation

Surround-screen displays Large FOV/FOR

Makes use of peripheral vision

Real and virtual objects easily mixed in 3D application

Requires large amount of physical space

Expensive device

Limited to 4 tracked viewer in mono, 2 in stereo per device

Physical/virtual object occlusion problem • Monocular

• Stereopsis

• Full motion parallax when tracked

• Convergence if using stereo

• No accommodation

Workbenches Generally higher spatial resolution than surround screen devices

Devices can be titled to mimic desks and easels

Some devices permit 2D input on display surface

No peripheral vision

Limited to 4 tracked viewers in mono, 2 in stereo per device

Physical/virtual object occlusion problem • Monocular

• Stereopsis

• Limited motion parallax when tracked because of limited mobility

• Convergence if using stereo

• No accommodation

Hemispherical displays Brighter images due to front projection

Large FOV

Spatial resolution not always uniform across display surface

Front projection makes direct manipulation difficult

Limited to 4 tracked viewers in mono, 2 in stereo per device

Physical/virtual object occlusion problem • Monocular

• Stereopsis

• Limited motion parallax when tracked because of limited mobility

• Convergence if using stereo

• No accommodation

Head-mounted displays 360-degree FOR

Portable device

No physical/virtual object occlusion problems

Small FOV

Lower spatial resolution then projection-based device

Ergonomic issues due to weight and fit of device

Limited peripheral vision • Monocular

• Stereopsis if using stereocapable HMD

• Full motion parallax when tracked

• Convergence if using stereo

• Accommodation possible in research prototype

Arm-mounted displays Easy to manipulate because of counterweight

360-degree FOR with BOOM

High spatial resolution because heavier optics can be used

User must have one hand on device in order to operate it

Limited user mobility

Limited peripheral vision • Monocular

• Stereopsis if the device is stereo-capable

• Limited motion parallax when tracked to limited mobility

• Convergence if using stereo

• Accommodation possible

Virtual retinal displays Bright, high-resolution images

Potential to have FOV matching human visual system

360-degree FOR

Current systems designed primarily for mobile computing only

Need eye tracking

Little work done with 3D user interfaces • Monocular

• Stereopsis if using stereo-capable VRD

• Full motion parallax when tracked

• Convergence if using stereo

• Accommodation possible in research prototype

Autostereoscopic displays(lenticular)

Autostereoscopic displays(volumetric and holographic) No glasses required to see stereo

High spatial resolution

Limited sweet spot

Limited FOV and FOR

Limited to 4 tracked viewers in mono, 2 in stereo per device

Physical/virtual object occlusion problem

Produce true 3D imagery

Unlimited active viewers(all will see correct perspective)

No accommodation convergence cue conflicts

No tracker needed

Limited FOV,FOR and display area

Little work done with 3D user interfaces • Monocular

• Stereopsis

• Limited motion parallax when tracked

• Convergence

• No accomodation

• Monocular only with some devices

• Stereopsis

• Motion parallax

• Convergence

• accommodation

Table 1. Visual display devices: pros and cons, visual depth cues supported.

4.3. The Analysis of Input Hardware

4.3.1. Introduction

As stated, an equally important part is choosing the appropriate set of input devices that allow the user to communicate with the application. For example, we might need to track the user’s head or let him interact with the application using his voice. As output devices, there are many different types of input devices to choose from when developing a 3D user interface, and some devices may be more appropriate for certain tasks than others.

4.3.2. Input Device Characteristics

This research contains a variety of different input devices and how they affect interaction techniques. These devices are broken up into the following categories:

• Desktop input devices

• Tracking devices

• 3D mice

• Special-purpose input devices

• Direct human input

There are many input devices that are used in desktop. Many of these devices have been used and designed for traditional 2D desktop applications such as word processing, spreadsheets, and drawing. However, with appropriate mappings, these devices also work well in 3D application such as modeling and computer games. Some desktop input devices have also been developed with 3D interaction in mind. Of course, most of these devices could also be used in more immersive 3D user interfaces that use surround-screen displays or HMDs, although some would be more appropriate than others. Keyboard is a classic example of a traditional desktop input device that contains a set of discrete components. They are commonly used in many desktop 3D applications from modeling to computer games. “Two-dimensional mice and trackballs are another classic example of desktop input devices made popular by the Windows, Icons, Menus, and Pointers (WIMP) interface metaphor.” (Dam.V, 1997). Pen-based tablets and handheld personal digital assistants (PDAs) generate the same types of input that mice do, but they have a different form factor. Joystick also another example of input devices traditionally used on the desktop and with a long history as a computer input peripheral.

In many 3D applications, it is important for the user interface to provide information about the user or physical object’s location in 3D space. For example, an application might need the user’s head position and orientation so that full motion parallax and stereoscopic depth cues can be included in the application. One of the most important aspects of 3D interaction in virtual worlds is providing a correspondence between the physical and virtual environments. As a result, having accurate tracking is a crucial part of making interaction techniques usable within VR applications. Currently, there are a number of different motion-tracking technologies in use, which include magnetic tracking, mechanical tracking, acoustic tracking, inertial tracking, optical tracking and hybrid tracking. Eye trackers are purely passive input devices used to determine where the user is looking. In some cases, it is useful to have detailed tracking information about the user’s hand, such as how the fingers are bending or two fingers have made contract with each other.

The distinguishing characteristic of 3D mice, as opposed to regular 2D mice, is that the user physically moves them in 3D space to obtain position or orientation information instead of just moving the device along a flat surface. Therefore, users can hold the device or in some cases, wear it. Additionally, with orientation information present, it is trivial to determine where the device is pointing, a function used in many fundamental 3D interaction techniques. Because of their generality, they can be mapped to many different interaction techniques, and in one form or another, they are often the primary means of communicating user intention in 3D user interfaces for VE applications.

Special-purpose input device are often designed for specific applications or used in specific interfaces. The example of these special-purpose devices is Shape Tape. Shape Tape is a flexible, ribbon like tape of fiber-optic curvature sensors that comes in various lengths and sensor spacing. Because the sensor provide bend and twist information along the tape’s length, it can be easily flexed and twisted in the hand, making it an ideal input device for creating, editing, and manipulating 3D curves.

A powerful approach to interacting with 3D applications is to obtain data directly from signals generated by the human body. With this approach, the user actually becomes the input device. For example, a user could stand in front of a camera and perform different movements, which the computer would interpret as commands. Other types of direct human input device include speech, bioelectric, and brain computer input.

CHAPTER 5: DISCCUSSION AND CONCLUSION

5.1. Conclusion

While VR technology is currently mature enough to be used in practical applications, in many fields, it is still clearly in its early development phase. In many ways, it is still a technology that we are just beginning to learn how to apply. However, it is easy to project the path of its continued evolution. It will include faster and higher quality graphics, more affordable and better designed head-mounted display (HMDs), other input and output devices, and faster computer processing power. These enhancements will influence various aspects of VR application, from the visual and audio quality of virtual worlds, to the breadth of VR application that will be available in new fields. However, the question still been asked about VR either what is good or what is bad. Sure, everything created there will be good and bad. If people just think about the bad way, then new things will never appear. Here, we will discuss the question that always been asked. Basically, the question is about;

Can people build systems that immerse all of the user’s senses?

Most immersive technologies have been designed to provide a virtual stimulus to a single sensory modality (visual). We have surround-screen displays that flood he user’s visual sense with realistic 3D stereo graphics, spatial audio systems that produce believable sounds from any 3D location, and haptic devices that display surface or texture with passable realism. Less work has been done on smell, taste or vestibular displays although some rough prototypes have been developed. The real challenge, however is to integrate all of these single-sense display types into seamless system. Similar to the Holodeck on Star Trek, in such a system objects and environments would look, sound, feel, smell and taste completely realistic. Before we achieve the Holodeck, however there are many intermediate steps. One is to develop to a haptic system that integrates al the different elements of haptic sensation: resistance, elasticity texture and temperature at any number of points on the user’s hand and body. A second step is to integrate haptics and immersive visuals. Current haptics devices are typically unusable in immersive displays, because they must sit on a desk or because they require so many wires, mechanical arms, and other hardware that they are too complex to integrate with a CAVE or HMD. A third challenge is to solve the “visual interference” problem. If we completely surround the user with virtual visual, where do we put the tracking device, haptic device, speakers, and other components so that they do not interfere with the viewing the virtual world? Retinal displays that draw graphics directly on the entire surface of the user’s retinal could provide a solution here.

What are the best mapping between devices, tasks, interaction techniques, and application?

The point of developing better 3D technology is to enable better 3D application, but currently we know very little about the usefulness of specific technologies for specific applications. Ideally, we would like to have a set of guidelines (or even an automated process) that, given a description of an application (domain, tasks, users, requirements, constraints,) would suggest an appropriate set of devices (input and output) and interaction techniques. In order for this to become reality, a huge amount of empirical research needs to be performed. We need to compare the usability of various 3D display devices and input devices for particular tasks and domain; we need to evaluate the compatibility of input devices and interaction techniques; and we need to understand the ways in which input and display devices affect each other.

How can mixed reality interaction techniques allow seamless interaction in boh the real and virtual worlds?

In completely virtual worlds, designers can opt for fully natural techniques or magic techniques, or something in between. In mixed reality, however, designers don’t have as much freedom, because users will be interacting with real objects as well as virtual ones. In some cases, it may be appropriate and effective to use different methods of interaction in the real and virtual parts will be the best choice in most applications. The challenge, then, is to use the same interaction techniques to interact with both physical and virtual object; therefore, the user simply picks up the associated real object. As we’ve seen, however, magic interaction techniques can be very powerful, so mixed reality researchers should also consider whether it is possible to interact with real objects using magic interaction techniques. As a simple example, note that it certainly makes sense to select both virtual and real objects using a magic technique like ray-casting.

Can we quantity the real benefits of VR?

Nature has demonstrated through evolutionary forces that those species able to control and adapt to a changing environment have a distinct advantages over other life forms. Stereoscopic vision enables us to assess the size of a distant object quickly; we can looking at the stars at one moment, and one second later, be examining the surface detail of our skin. People do not need to invent reason for existence of VR system. They are a natural development for the tools we use to control our environment. Ad as so many design procedures are already computerized, immersive VR systems will simply enhance existing human-computer interfaces. Instead of manipulating an image of a virtual mechanical component, people will design the component as if it existed. Instead of trying to imagine what it would be like to stand inside an imaginary atrium, an architect can actually discover first-hand. Virtual reality will be used to model and explore familiar environments associated with kitchens, planes, offices, studio, ships, submarines, cars and hospitals. It will also be used to explore unfamiliar environments found in molecules, atoms, galaxies, viruses, bacteria and crystals. In order to appreciate the hidden potential of VR systems people will explore in greater depth some of the relevant subject areas and how integrated systems function. People will then study how the technology is currently being applied, and also explore how the technology could evolve and be used in a wide variety of applications.

5.2. Conclusion

Artificial intelligence (AI) is another area of computer technology that may well push VR into new directions. AI involves programming computers to stimulate human thinking processes. An AI expert system consists of a database or collection of rules on a specific topic. This information is gleaned from a real-life expert

AI agents already serve as guides or assistants who provide information to VR participants, functioning much like an animated help function.

The ability of users to share virtual worlds on a global scale will create virtual communities in cyberspace. These real time interaction promise unlimited opportunities for people from diverse cultures to communicate and pool their collective knowledge. In future developments in VR, the line between virtual reality and reality may become less discernible.

It would be impossible to address all the applications for VR currently under investigation. Those that have been described have been chosen to illustrate the breadth of applications, and the benefits arising from these projects. There are many more exciting application areas to explore, such as plastic surgery, psychiatry, teaching, drama, artificial intelligence, robotics, simulation, art and design, fashion, information retrieval, museums and retailing. It is left to the reader to pursue these topics through the wealth of papers, journals and books associated with VR.

Within a very short period of time VR has lost its image of technology looking for a problem, and is now being applied to almost every area of human endeavor. This author does not believe, however, that the engineers, scientist and surgeons will have to become accustomed to wearing HMDs, every minute of the day. What will happen is that computer systems will acquire interfaces where the benefits of the virtual domain can be utilized whenever it is necessary. VR is now posed to expand in many directions, and will be greatly influenced by technological development in the next few years.

VR technology is no different to any other technology when it comes to success in the marketplace, and very simple issues will determine how it will be embraced by different communities. System reliability, ease of use, cost, physical side-effects and efficiency are just as important to industry as presence, immersion spatial and spatial awareness. In time, though, such problems will be resolved and we can look forward to a new generation of tools, to which we will quickly become accustomed.

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2010-03-01T02:55:00.000+08:00

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If I could turn back time..

2010-02-26T21:27:00.000+08:00

If could turn back time, I would like to spoiled myself from the beginning so that I could be so heartless. As heartless as u cant imagine. Thou there's so many words in this world wide, still cant be used to explain how spoiled I wanted it to be.

Just now I browsed someone's profile but its totally private. I can only view his profile pic, and make me thinking. Why he's scared of being viewed by others? Yet I can understand, maybe he needed some privacy since I also put my page as private but not as private as he's doing. Its like he have enemies to prevent. This why honest and faith are needed in a relationship. I'm not saying that I'm good enough to put all of my heart over one relationship, but so far I treated everyone fairly. :P I guess as I tried my best ! Ok, back to the topic..

At these time, I've been thinking what issit mean by friend? Yes I may looked tough and I may look like I'm not really cared about that but for me, friends for life. Boyfriend may come and go, but friends stick together.

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As one ponders this question about male/female friendships, one must definitively define the meaning of friend. A friend is defined as someone one knows well, and is regarded with affection and trust. With that in mind, what difference does it make that friends are the opposite sex? Perhaps the real question is can men/women be friends without sex being an issue?

As a woman, I'd like to answer this with as much honesty and clarity as possible. What is the real reason that men and women can't be friends? If sex is the only viable reason, then you were never friends to begin with. As women, we are more inclined to the emotional side of relationships, whereas men are analytical.

Women tend to carry their feelings and emotions in almost all that we do. On the other hand, men feel this need to hide behind feelings as though they're a bad thing. It's a weakness, therefore best to stay hidden behind the macho image they re-enforce albeit, mannerisms, physical attributes, or the tough-guy attitude.

As with any relationship, trust is the main component. A relationship doesn't stand a chance male or female if trust is not in place. Trust is the foundation that sustains a friendship. This person that you've befriended must have had attributes that drew you in the first place.

When choosing a friend, ones physical appearance is noted, but should that be the only attribute to acknowledge? What about personality traits? What about having things in common? Are these not things that we seek overall be it friendship or our lifelong mate? There has to be a moment when one says, that's it. That's what I've been looking for my whole life? Where have you been?

As a woman with a man as a best friend, not once did I take into consideration that fact that he is male and I am female. We are just two people that have had this incredible lifelong adventure that I wouldn't change for the world. We go back as far as when we were in diapers, and here we are 50 years later, stronger than ever. There is no way to put a value on that.

We went to elementary, middle school and high school never once skipping a beat. We've shared more secrets than the distance between the earth and the moon. We've laughed, cried, loved and been inseparable from day one. That's unheard of in today's society.

My husband knew from day one that Joel was my best friend. If he wanted a relationship with me, we were a package deal. My husband in is wisdom took it upon himself to get to know Joel before we were married. After which his acceptance meant our relationship could move forward.

We've been married 26 years, and Joel continues to be very much part of the family. We share our holidays, birthdays, anniversaries, vacations, and even deaths together. We are likening to that of a ring that's a complete circle. There is no beginning and there is no end.

Over the years, there have been those that just don't understand the relationship or the friendship. That's sad for so many reasons, but mostly because it makes those that don't understand it...uncomfortable. It's not up to me to maintain your comfort level. Passing judgment on things that you don't understand is ignorant on so many levels.

I've always encouraged my boys (24 and 22) to have friendships with girls. We are not a species to be frightened of or weary of. Our only differences are physical, and that's not a reason to reject a friendship. Women and men balance each other as well as compliment each other. To ignore that one could miss out on the best friend they ever had.

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Goin' where the wind blows..

2010-02-24T19:46:00.000+08:00

In one evening, I opened my foobar (mp3 player that I love the most because of its friendly application) and 1st song i click.. Mr.Big- Goin' where the wind blows.. The song that was so nostalgic, song that I'm used to listen everyday when I'm on my secondary school. The song is so simple yet the lyrics is so deep.

Someone said life is for the taking
Here I am with my hand out waiting for a ride
I've been living on my great expectations
What good is it when I'm stranded here
And the world just passess by
Where are the signs to help me get out of this place
If I should stumble on my moment in time,
How will I know
If the story's written on my face, does it show
Am I strong enough to walk on water
Smart enough to come in out of the rain
Or am I a fool going where the wind blows
Here I sit halfway to somewhere
Thinking about what's in front of me and
what I left behind
On my own, supposed to be so easy
Is this what I've been after
Or have I lost my mind
Maybe this is my chance coming to take me away
If I should stumble on my moment in time,
How will I know
If the story's written on my face, does it show
Am I strong enough to walk on water
Smart enough to come in out of the rain
Or am I a fool going where the wind blows
Here I am walking naked through the world
Taking up space, society's child
Make room for me, make room for me,
make room for me
Am I strong enough to walk on water
Smart enough to come in out of the rain
Or am I a fool
Going where the wind blows
Going where the wind blows
Going where the wind blows
Going where the wind blows

For me, to pick up the most favorable songs is not just because how its sound, but with good lyrics give a better impact.